Black Tar Heroin Is My Fallback Plan

The war on the domestic front is winding up neatly on one front. Personal laundry and goods have been cleansed and organized. I didn’t throw away as much stuff as I thought I would, but I think some of that has to do with being better about not hanging on to junk, maybe. I’ve been making an effort to recycle stuff and save water/energy. It’s supposed to take something like 30 straight days to build a lasting habit, so we’ll see how that goes.

Although me and Netflix have been a running joke in the past, I’m finally starting to use it. Right now there’s something like 100+ movies on my queue, the vast majority of those being from before 1945. But at the rate that I can watch a movie, mail it in, and get a new one I can only watch like 6-8 movies a month, so that list will be long for a while. And what is this bullshit about the watching instantly thing not working overseas?

I signed up for biology last week. It was the only class they offered this semester that I either hadn’t already taken a class for or taken an AP test for. I won’t know what credits will transfer, I have to take two classes first, but I’d like to avoid any kind of repeats if possible. Here’s hoping the plunge back into academia (more of a toe in the water really) goes better than my last foray.

The job has taken a remarkable turn for the better. In large part this has to do with the news that my unit will not, after all, be going to Hawaii. So though that may be spiteful, at least it removes one of the primary contentions I had with the work. The pace in general has slowed down, and some new blood around the shop has made the atmosphere a great deal more jovial. I’ve got a lot of free time now too, so for now I’m doing an extreme reorganization of the shop, though after that I’m not sure what I’ll keep busy with.

Well, things keep going forward towards the end of the summer.

These are the same old promises I’ve been making to myself since time immemorial.

The new job is in many ways a sugar treat filled with poison. On the one hand I’ve pretty much got the run of the place, with really just 1 1/2 a boss. There is no petty work to complain about, and the actual amount of business is rather low, which might bore some people but I’m never bored so I’m not bothered much. The atmosphere is altogether more congenial, and I actually like my 1 boss pretty well.

Now the contraries: My free time is lost and hasn’t really been seen since I started. I am frequently working through lunch and sometimes over an hour past the usual closing time, not to mention working weekends is no longer uncommon. And I absolutely loathe my 1/2 boss. A source of constant frustration is that I find myself in the middle of a poorly designed and at times frustratingly obstructive bureaucracy. I’ve never wanted to do any kind of paper pushing office job but this is exactly what I’ve wound up doing. Half of our workload comes from serving as a useless intermediary between those requesting and those who process the requests. God forbid we need to find out what’s going on with any past jobs; we constantly find our hands tied in the face of hydra like departments and administrative levels.

What may be worst of all is the sheer injustice of how I came to be here. The guy I replaced was actually fired for incompetency and sent back to our unit. Getting fired from this job, which lasts six months, is unheard of. Worst of all my unit has gone to Camp Fuji and will be going to K-Bay, and that worthless sack of shit gets to go in my place. And he’s not even the kind of guy that would enjoy it.

This is going to be rough until November.

Oft neglected, I guess. Work is something that may have fucked me over for the month of June. There was supposed to be a week with my family and then an exercise at Fuji, but now they’re sending me to push paper because the guy we sent before is a failure. Everything always seems timed so wrong.

Can you have a domestic front without a home? Anyway some personal plans are going ahead or have flattened out some. Health is still being worked on and I’m still reading, which I think is back for good. I might be in a regret phase right now, but I guess drinking has done wonders for my life anyway. Also saving money better by drinking cheaper, though not necessarily less. Some things had a deadline for the end of Summer, but will likely change for the new assignment. The highlight of the last three weeks is that they have been stocking Shiner Bock, and now they have taken that away from me.